I have been going to college for 2.5 years and yeah I met a few people that I like, we're fb buddies and every great once in awhile we might text each other but we're not friends. We don't do anything together. I do miss having classes with a few of them though.
To be honest I am also a little picky. I can't be friends with people who do drugs or anything else illegal, people a lot younger than me seem more like children to me than possible bff's and to be honest I like the idea of a married christian mother, you know someone similar to myself.
I started going to church a little more than 9 months ago and even took a class there once but so far I've only met one woman that I've seen outside of church. We are not friends though, she babysat for me once for a few hours so I could go to disaster relief training in Lexington and we've seen her at the grocery store once. So again, no friends.
I went to a christian retreat and really liked a few of the families, I liked them all but really felt that I could click with a few of them but that was a month ago and it doesn't look like any friendships are going to come from that weekend. I get it though. The families I met are busy busy families, wonderful dads and moms and fabulous kids.
I guess I wish I had someone to go to a coffee shop with, someone to talk to about happy things or sad things, just someone... I want to be someone that someone else wants to talk to. I don't just want someone to be my friend but I want to be someone elses friend.
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| Found this online... true but made me giggle... that had to take some guts or be a joke. |
I have a few people that I'd call friends, people from my junior/senior high school days. Actually only two so is that a few, not really, I think that only counts as a couple. One of them I never ever see, never ever text or call and rarely speak on fb. He's my friend though because he feels like family. Another one I've known since we were like 2 or 3, I don't know for sure but I do know there is no memory of her NOT being in my life. We very rarely see each other, rarely ever talk, just recently started texting to each other, rarely talk on fb. She does live four hours away from me but even when she was only 2 hours away we didn't hang out. She became my legal sister our senior year of high school but that's a long story. The point is that she doesn't fill the void I feel that I have for a friend. She is super busy and I get that. She's a sister.
But if I want to call and chat with someone or just chat online because I've gotten to the point that I kind of hate talking on the phone, I don't feel like I have anyone.
I guess I'm feeling a little lonely tonight because I'm a little upset with my husband. He didn't do anything wrong really, he just doesn't like the person I am and that is upsetting. It was because I made a comment about a tattoo I'd want in the future. He hates tattoos but I don't, I love them. I have two. Yes to be honest only one of them mean anything to me, the other was a young and dumb thing but its a little heart & roses, not a big deal. I want probably 3 more. I don't understand why he can't be him and accept me for me... love me anyways. Oh well........ yes I know I am pathetic.......
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